the distant vision

   
   I don't always see hope. I struggle to find it; especially when things go all wrong. When those days creep in, I have an ugly mentality. I don't care to seek the light that is to come, and the days ahead. Little by little though, I am beginning to see it. I can push through the darkness and see and feel and breathe the light ahead. It is there, omnipresent, waiting to be claimed. Though the darkness seems threatening, light is just ahead, eager to lend a hand.

There is hope in the days you feel numb. There is hope in the days your eyes can't stay open and your body is weary. There is hope in the days you are sleep deprived. There is hope in the days your mirror tells you that more rib and thinner thighs will make you feel beautiful again. There is hope in the days you find yourself running for the corner to escape painful, agonizing situations. There is hope in the days when nothing but cruelty stabs you. There is hope in the days haunting memories from the past threaten you. There is hope in the days you feel inferior and weak and ugly. There is hope in the days you are angry and cannot concentrate. There is hope in the days you are bitter and the tears won't stop stinging. There is hope in the days when your mind claims that no one cares  about you. There is hope in the days you are misunderstood and accused falsely. There is hope in the days you panic, "Is God real?" There is hope in the days you are laughed at and degraded. There is hope in the days you realize you have been far from God. There is hope in the days your feet can't hold up any longer and you just want to quit. There is hope in the days you try to be your best and the opposite is seen. There is hope in the days you have the tough conversation. There is hope in the days we make mistakes. There is hope in the days you try your hardest, but only the imperfections are seen. There is hope in the days you sink into the cushions, desperately sigh, and think, "I can't do it." There is hope in the days you don't see your life going as you wish. There is hope in the days you throw your hands in the air from frustration. There is hope in the days you lose your phone and then your iPod. There is hope in the days you just don't understand. There is hope in the days you feel like you've wasted your life. There is hope in the days you don't fit someone's approval. There is hope in the days your money goes down the drain. There is hope in the days you feel panic settling in. There is hope in the days you hear that last "Good-Bye". There is hope in the days that friendships crumble. There is hope in the days you no longer remember who you are. There is hope in the days you are confused. There is hope in the days you feel ghostly. There is hope in the days you are paralyzed in fear. There is hope in the days you forget. There is hope in the days your body feels sick and fragile. There is hope in the days you wish you didn't exist and that it could all end. There is hope in the days we see no miracles, and there is hope in the days to come.

Hebrews 11:1 "Now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see."